Is truly not the one. My emotions are just so flighty at the moment and everything feels difficult. I range from being deliriously happy to suicidal in the hour. My concentration span has been shred into a hundred thousand pieces and my resilience seems to have removed itself from my body.
I feel scared and worried most of the time apart from when I’m running. Keep running longer distances and I don’t know if that is punishment or just a thing to get the emotions out. Either way it stops me from being worried and gives me some kind of control in what is the most lonely, connected, disconnected, disconcerting time.
As my house mate has tested positive for Corona, I have to try and create a new routine for myself. This is hard. It’s hard for me to fill 9 hours of time without ruminating or getting stuck in my own head.
Currently I’m listening to some classical music, with lavender on my pillow trying to soothe my almost 3rd degree sun burns. I am trying to build up that resistance again.
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