Wrecked.

This morning I feel wrecked. Last nights events left me unable to sleep, followed by nightmares and an rude early ( not so so early 8:02am) awakening.

My body feels cut up, my eyes are barely able to stay open and my brain, my little tired brain is just somewhere else. Lounging in bed hearing the rain on my windows with Saturday morning kitchen on but not really taking it in. I feel dead inside my own skin, kinda like a zombie. I’m hearing but I can’t hear what is being said. I’m seeing but I can’t truly see. I’m eating but unable to taste. I’m wishing it was night time again so that I can sleep. So I can feel human again.

How does one find the motivation to do things when one feels like this? Ultimately I know that lying in bed will make my mind cross over to the irrational side but I have no get up and go in me. I’m finding it hard to even reply to my friends and this is where I worry I get stuck.

Gimme ideas please to get me back on track.

I hope the rest of your Saturday’s are going well!