Just one example of a person in a position of power who truly doesn’t seem to handle mental health.
Today, at work I just blew up. I had been dealing with stress at work, stress that I couldn’t control or when I dropped hints and words like ” I’m sorry, I’m finding that group especially hard work. I’m trying, I really am. But they are sucking the life from me” I was met with “I can’t help, I’m being pulled in lots of different directions too.” Which I understand, my teacher is being pulled in lots of different directions and it isn’t all about me, but I cannot teach that group alone. The whole group not just the SEN children. I am only one person and I don’t get paid enough for that stress. Anyway today I had reached my limit, I had called back my doctor after missing her call on Monday and I had just spoken to my psychiatric team. I was trying so hard not to explode. I was actually trying to
ADULT
I was talking to people about what was going on for me, I was letting people know that I was like a bomb about to implode or explode or whatever the word may be. I I was stating that I might need to go home because today and the last 3 days had been so stressful but I was met with the response in the title by a member of senior leadership. By the top dog, the most senior person in my school. And that response just made me feel like a complete and utter failure. I explained to him how I was never taught the skills to ask for help and when I did growing up, it was thrown right back in my face. I was taught to deal with things alone and to not expect people to help me with my problems. I told him that it takes a great deal for me to reach out my tiny hands and open my mouth and ask for help. I especially find this hard when I am in my ‘irrational state’. When I’m rational, I can see what I need but isn’t that the catch with a lot of mental health issues. If we knew how to ask for help and actually take on the help we need surely we wouldn’t be in as much bother as now.
I dunno, I’m typing and rambling, but I just needed to get it out.
I’m going to try and catch an early night and wake up tomorrow fresh faced and ready to face the day, No more number 4 of stress.
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