Katie Bunn

Sundays.

Sundays are for lazy mornings l, waking up too early but just lying there in bed with the wind wafting over you through the window. It is for bacon and egg sandwiches followed by long country walks (well as much as you can get in London) in the sunshine. Looking at, being inspired by natureContinue reading “Sundays.”

Am I going crazy?

Is my brain going crazy? Does anyone else ever feel like they want to get rid of their own brains, switch up and swap it for a different one? I feel recently the thing that sits on top of my head is completely and utterly failing me. I haven’t managed to stay in a therapyContinue reading “Am I going crazy?”

What do you do when you start feeling sad at the end of a therapy session?

I just don’t know. Today at the end of my group session, I felt as if I could cry, tears right in the corner of my eyes ready to come out but not quite there. It was difficult because there wasn’t enough time to talk about it. My heart was pumping fast and I feltContinue reading “What do you do when you start feeling sad at the end of a therapy session?”

Late night musings.

Trying to sleep but tossing and turning. My thoughts are so loud at this time of night. Speaking to me loudly and contemplatively. I guess, well I know that part of the problem with me is that I think I don’t have an impact on people so it doesn’t matter what I do or whatContinue reading “Late night musings.”

Medication

This medication makes me feel weird. It makes me feel spacey and distant when I take it in the morning with food but in the evening when I am meant to sleep it makes me feel alert and have great concentration for the smallest of tasks. On Friday, when I took it before travelling upContinue reading “Medication”

Never enough

Do you ever feel not enough? Not enough for friends or for family, always feeling slightly out of place and that people can be better, live better without you? Not even in a ” I want to kill myself” detrimental kind of way but in a I do not make my friends and families livesContinue reading “Never enough”

Suicide

So I’m gonna try to attempt to talk about this subject for 2 reasons: It is something that needs to be talked and talked and talked about. It is a subject close to my heart. Oppps 3, it is something that is currently being talked about in the media. And that is something which hasContinue reading “Suicide”

Sorry I’ve been absent but

my mind has been more than a little chaotic for the last week and a half. Tied in with that, birthday apprehension and then the birthday blues. I’ve also been put on some medication Quietiapine to help stablise my moods and my impulsivity. I started on 25mg last Wednesday and now I am up toContinue reading “Sorry I’ve been absent but”

My anxious mind

As soon as I leave the house my brain seems to like to remind me of all the possible things I’ve left on or broken. “Left the oven on, left the gas on- the house is gonna burn down. Didn’t shut the fridge, didn’t close your window. Didn’t shut the front door properly and youContinue reading “My anxious mind”

Flowers

Even flowers grow in the dark. They find their own way into the world, into to the light. The flowers find their time to grow and fight. Even in the cracks of pavements or in the nooks of trees, flowers grow. But not every flower grows and develops at the same speed. And I guessContinue reading “Flowers”