As soon as I leave the house my brain seems to like to remind me of all the possible things I’ve left on or broken. “Left the oven on, left the gas on- the house is gonna burn down. Didn’t shut the fridge, didn’t close your window. Didn’t shut the front door properly and youContinue reading “My anxious mind”
Category Archives: mental health
Flowers
Even flowers grow in the dark. They find their own way into the world, into to the light. The flowers find their time to grow and fight. Even in the cracks of pavements or in the nooks of trees, flowers grow. But not every flower grows and develops at the same speed. And I guessContinue reading “Flowers”
Friday 7th February 2020
Overall, on reflection, this week has mostly been a good one. I’ve managed to maintain an air of positivity whilst also living and breathing in a setting in which I do not necessarily thrive. My therapist asked me today but what has happened to make it it so and well I guess I didn’t reallyContinue reading “Friday 7th February 2020”
Why is accessing my feelings so difficult?
Yesterday, I began to write an open letter to my therapist explaining or rather trying to explain some of my emotions that I am currently experiencing but fuck me it was hard. I actually went from talking about a certain situation to to being absolutely cut off. And that was writing down how I wasContinue reading “Why is accessing my feelings so difficult?”
Sleep
Can someone please find a way of telling my own brain that sleep is pivotal and conducive to better mood and less destructive thoughts. Having been up since 4:30 AM I am well and truly over this day. I mean as things go, it hasn’t been too much of a crazy one but also hereContinue reading “Sleep”
Extreneous noise
Today has mostly been a good day, I mean I didn’t sleep very well with lots of horrible dreams but I guess when do I actually sleep well haha. So anyway, I digress I woke up in an okay mood despite the sleep and was working through the morning at work. Everything was going wellContinue reading “Extreneous noise”
Honest, raw and vulnerable
That is what I’m going to do here, today. Be honest, raw and vulnerable. I have been up from 07:30 pondering life, actually I’ve been pondering how I have fallen very much so, during the last 2 days. I’m not going to lie, or sugar coat or try to make excuses today. Last week wasContinue reading “Honest, raw and vulnerable”
Friday night
I feel flat and numb and exhausted from all of this week. I have been lying in my bed in the dark and silence since 7:30 pm. All day it has felt like noise is too much, any noise from people talking at apparently normal volumes and it is almost as though I’m on hyperContinue reading “Friday night”
Trust
This is such a hard fucking topic for me. Trust is such a key thing in order to open up and tell people what you are feeling. Even with those closest to me, I find it hard to tell them about my most authentic feelings and I still hide what sometimes feels like, the realContinue reading “Trust”
Cycling in the dark
I can’t do it, especially after a day with glasses on and concentration full blast. When I ride in the dark, my mind plays tricks on me. I see shadows and figures of people and things lurking in the unseen. It scares the shit out of me but also makes me worried about my ownContinue reading “Cycling in the dark”
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