Today has mostly been a good day, I mean I didn’t sleep very well with lots of horrible dreams but I guess when do I actually sleep well haha. So anyway, I digress I woke up in an okay mood despite the sleep and was working through the morning at work. Everything was going wellContinue reading “Extreneous noise”
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Honest, raw and vulnerable
That is what I’m going to do here, today. Be honest, raw and vulnerable. I have been up from 07:30 pondering life, actually I’ve been pondering how I have fallen very much so, during the last 2 days. I’m not going to lie, or sugar coat or try to make excuses today. Last week wasContinue reading “Honest, raw and vulnerable”
Trust
This is such a hard fucking topic for me. Trust is such a key thing in order to open up and tell people what you are feeling. Even with those closest to me, I find it hard to tell them about my most authentic feelings and I still hide what sometimes feels like, the realContinue reading “Trust”
Bath tub musings
What does it require to heal your heart and your mind from trauma or or loss or disappointment? Does it require inner strength as well as outer strength? Cos I believe I am a strong person but I am struggling immensely with healing and understanding why and well lemme just say life has become difficultContinue reading “Bath tub musings”
Saturday 25th January, just.
I’m sorry I didn’t blog yesterday. What happened is I wen to the pub for one after work and then bought a KFC and ended up crashing in bed by 9:47. So that was yesterday. Today, I came home for the weekend to my best friends house to play bpard games and chill and chatContinue reading “Saturday 25th January, just.”
Eurgh blog crashed
For once, I actually wrote a good one. A fucking good blog post – I actually managed to express how I feel and what I needed and then BOOM the site crashed. I think, unfortunately, that is a representation of my day today. Today I have managed to hide how I feel. How I feelContinue reading “Eurgh blog crashed”
Mixed reviews
Today has been a day of more than 2 halves. I was told I was too emotional and too emotionally involved. Don;t get me wrong, I know I am too emotional. I have BPD for fuck’s sake. Everything is emotional to me. I don’t mind being called emotional apart from when it is used asContinue reading “Mixed reviews”
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And I blog and I write and I run and I photograph and I do anything to ease the feelings that live within me. I would do almost anything to stop myself from feeling as much as I do. Whether it’s anger, sadness, happiness or frustration that builds up within me, I don’t often knowContinue reading “….”
Hangover blues
Does anyone else get this? That sadness that completely comes out of the blue after such an amazing night?! I mean come on, what’s that about? Is it about the world saying ” fuck you, you can’t be happy” or is it in fact a massive come down?! I had such a wonderful time lastContinue reading “Hangover blues”
I know it – you’re all itching to hear about how therapy went.
Wow! Is that really what you are meant to feel like after a GOOD therapy session. I felt lighter, like a heavy load had been lifted off of me. I felt this sense of ease rush over me. And although I felt flat when I finished the therapy session rather than the usual elated /Continue reading “I know it – you’re all itching to hear about how therapy went.”
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