Just a day, just another day where I felt like crying all day at work. Whereby I lost my shit, Whereby my emotions chopped and changed like the seas waves. Where I was angry, sad, impatient, happy, and stubborn. But just another day. Another day to get through and deal with. But, here I am,Continue reading “Small steps leads to changes”
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Wednesday 15h January 2020
Today, I just got my head down and carried on. Just one of those days where ultimately I hid but also faced up to my anxieties. Today at work a baby shower type thing losely was held for a member of staff who is heavily pregnant and leaving on Friday. Everyone else got told beforeContinue reading “Wednesday 15h January 2020”
And you try…….
And you try and you try . To help yourself get better and stronger and faster and fitter. And you keep going and keep going until it becomes routine or it breaks you. ‘Til you reach the end of no return. ‘Til your mind is altered one way or the other so you aren’t livingContinue reading “And you try…….”
I told you it was gonna be a hard mental health day
So yeah, as I mentioned this morning this was a very hard day for me. It was like my mind wouldn’t stop racing but I was so tired. Sick and tired of all this bullshit. I had group therapy which was hard, hard as fuck, which I walked out of. I walked out because itContinue reading “I told you it was gonna be a hard mental health day”
You know it’s going to be a mental health day when…..
You’ve been up since 5 am but didn’t sleep til gone 1. My mind was an anxious wreck, other thinking, unable to settle. I tossed and turned all night, not quite knowing when I was going to actually get some sleep. I tried counting sheep, listening to classical music, anything to keep my brain fromContinue reading “You know it’s going to be a mental health day when…..”
No topic is off topic.
Sometimes all you need is to get back into the things you love, oh and for your period to come. I know this is too much information but after yesterday I thought I had rapidly dropped into decline again. I take such an interest in my ” bad ” spells that I over react. IContinue reading “No topic is off topic.”
Saturday Blues
Today, I cannot be arsed. I have little motivation and I have spent the afternoon lounging, with the TV on, but not quite taking it in. I did succeed in doing a run this morning, which did in fact make me feel great so I guess that was a positive for me. But after myContinue reading “Saturday Blues”
Waiting for therapy
Sitting, waiting, trying to calm myself before entering the therapy room so I can help myself and talk. BUT the waiting room is full of people, wandering, with the same anxious feels inside them. The same people, looking like they’re going to be sick. The same people tapping their feet, pacing up and down theContinue reading “Waiting for therapy”
Sunday 5th January.
Leaving home after Christmas. I’m not sure of the feelings that are within me. I don’t feel as I want to go back but I don’t feel that sense of dread that is so often there when I leave home to get back to London. The fear that things are going to be bad again.Continue reading “Sunday 5th January. ”
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