Yesterday I began writing a half draft, deadly serious letter to myself to try and get me out of this lost state that I seem to keep finding myself in. I wrote and I wrote and I wrote. I was harsh on myself and upon reading it back, really quite brutal and honest. I haveContinue reading “Letter to myself.”
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Fight
Sorry, I lost myself for a while there. Got caught up in all of the negativity and negative emotion. Got lost in trying to find answers to problems that I can’t solve. Got lost searching for the meaning when actually there might be no reason at all for how it why I am like this.Continue reading “Fight”
Wake up, get up.
Needing to give myself a little pep talk and some positive affirmations this morning. The sun is shining through my window and Lewis Capaldi is blasting through my ears. A side effect of the medication is that I shake, so I’m trying to drink a cuppa whilst my hands slightly tremor. I haven’t spilt itContinue reading “Wake up, get up.”
Sundays.
Sundays are for lazy mornings l, waking up too early but just lying there in bed with the wind wafting over you through the window. It is for bacon and egg sandwiches followed by long country walks (well as much as you can get in London) in the sunshine. Looking at, being inspired by natureContinue reading “Sundays.”
Am I going crazy?
Is my brain going crazy? Does anyone else ever feel like they want to get rid of their own brains, switch up and swap it for a different one? I feel recently the thing that sits on top of my head is completely and utterly failing me. I haven’t managed to stay in a therapyContinue reading “Am I going crazy?”
What do you do when you start feeling sad at the end of a therapy session?
I just don’t know. Today at the end of my group session, I felt as if I could cry, tears right in the corner of my eyes ready to come out but not quite there. It was difficult because there wasn’t enough time to talk about it. My heart was pumping fast and I feltContinue reading “What do you do when you start feeling sad at the end of a therapy session?”
Medication
This medication makes me feel weird. It makes me feel spacey and distant when I take it in the morning with food but in the evening when I am meant to sleep it makes me feel alert and have great concentration for the smallest of tasks. On Friday, when I took it before travelling upContinue reading “Medication”
Never enough
Do you ever feel not enough? Not enough for friends or for family, always feeling slightly out of place and that people can be better, live better without you? Not even in a ” I want to kill myself” detrimental kind of way but in a I do not make my friends and families livesContinue reading “Never enough”
Suicide
So I’m gonna try to attempt to talk about this subject for 2 reasons: It is something that needs to be talked and talked and talked about. It is a subject close to my heart. Oppps 3, it is something that is currently being talked about in the media. And that is something which hasContinue reading “Suicide”
Sorry I’ve been absent but
my mind has been more than a little chaotic for the last week and a half. Tied in with that, birthday apprehension and then the birthday blues. I’ve also been put on some medication Quietiapine to help stablise my moods and my impulsivity. I started on 25mg last Wednesday and now I am up toContinue reading “Sorry I’ve been absent but”
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