Fight

Sorry, I lost myself for a while there. Got caught up in all of the negativity and negative emotion. Got lost in trying to find answers to problems that I can’t solve. Got lost searching for the meaning when actually there might be no reason at all for how it why I am like this. Maybe this is it. This is just me.

Gotta get back on the horse and pull my socks up. Get re-engaged and focused. Focus on the things and people that matter and not the things that don’t. Stop fighting people who want to help me be the best version of myself. Fight instead for blue skies and cycle rides and love. Love and care from those who mean it and not those who don’t. Fight for better days and better emotions. Fight for people. My people. Fight the fight of trying to make everything perfect and instead rolling with the waves and the punches and the mind numbing day to day.

Fight the fear. Fight the hopelessness. Fight the shame. Fight hard for what’s right. Fight hard for me

Just fucking start fighting again.