Katie Bunn

Wrecked.

This morning I feel wrecked. Last nights events left me unable to sleep, followed by nightmares and an rude early ( not so so early 8:02am) awakening. My body feels cut up, my eyes are barely able to stay open and my brain, my little tired brain is just somewhere else. Lounging in bed hearingContinue reading “Wrecked.”

Make it happen.

Somehow, someway. Make it happen. Listen to those songs and connect. Listen to those people and connect. I had therapy with L today, the first time I had spoken to her in about 3 weeks. I’d been avoiding her and well most people from Complex Needs apart from this week, and then with all theContinue reading “Make it happen.”

Safe space.

Not the people but the place – Springfield Hospital is where I feel the most stable, the most safe. The Hospital is so much more than I realised, those smelly rooms, the unacommodating, hostile reception staff sat in their chairs behind the glass perspex boxes, the cream coloured walls with its odd choice of artContinue reading “Safe space.”

Never fight fire with fire

It always ends in an explosion of character and emotion. Walk away and regroup. Find something that calms you and give yourself time to process the emotion and situation. Today, my alcoholic housemate, managed to smash 20 glasses by pulling apart a whole cupboard in a crescendo of noise which only lasted 30 seconds. EnoughContinue reading “Never fight fire with fire”

Not all heroes wear capes……

Some wear ordinary clothes, with scuffed trainers and unwashed hair. Some wear sports clothes and some wear uniforms. Some are disguised as miracle workers, proceeding and continuing to fulfill their role each and every day, looking after those who need it. Today, I got delivered a food package from a friend of mine, L (noContinue reading “Not all heroes wear capes……”

What a difference 24 hours and regaining some control makes.

This time 24 hours ago, I was talking to a therapist R, at Complex Needs. I was extremely suicidal and had been for a week and a bit. The deciding factor this week had been my housemate stating that he had been tested positive for Corona and my now settled routine had become awash withContinue reading “What a difference 24 hours and regaining some control makes.”

Having EUPD and being on lockdown

Is truly not the one. My emotions are just so flighty at the moment and everything feels difficult. I range from being deliriously happy to suicidal in the hour. My concentration span has been shred into a hundred thousand pieces and my resilience seems to have removed itself from my body. I feel scared andContinue reading “Having EUPD and being on lockdown”

I’ve just started to get into a routine with all this Covid-19 stuff and then Pow! Today. My head has blown up in my own stupid face. The alcoholic person with whom I live with came home today saying he has it. He has Corona Virus. Boom, my head went pop, pop, pop. 2 weeksContinue reading

Find one thing each day that makes you happy…

Well today I found 3. 1. The first was “Zoom”ing my family and my my best friend (Sorry A, I love you). (I can’t actually post a picture of my family on here cos the screen shot I took has all their surnames on there and I know that some of you are crazy motherfuckers).Continue reading “Find one thing each day that makes you happy…”

Video calling…….

I have recently discovered video calling through the help of a friend who persevered and persevered with me to do so. I know this might seem like a simple task in these crazy times but for me it is so anxiety provoking – the idea that I will talk over someone or the video willContinue reading “Video calling…….”