Today, I just got my head down and carried on. Just one of those days where ultimately I hid but also faced up to my anxieties. Today at work a baby shower type thing losely was held for a member of staff who is heavily pregnant and leaving on Friday. Everyone else got told beforeContinue reading “Wednesday 15h January 2020”
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And you try…….
And you try and you try . To help yourself get better and stronger and faster and fitter. And you keep going and keep going until it becomes routine or it breaks you. ‘Til you reach the end of no return. ‘Til your mind is altered one way or the other so you aren’t livingContinue reading “And you try…….”
I told you it was gonna be a hard mental health day
So yeah, as I mentioned this morning this was a very hard day for me. It was like my mind wouldn’t stop racing but I was so tired. Sick and tired of all this bullshit. I had group therapy which was hard, hard as fuck, which I walked out of. I walked out because itContinue reading “I told you it was gonna be a hard mental health day”
You know it’s going to be a mental health day when…..
You’ve been up since 5 am but didn’t sleep til gone 1. My mind was an anxious wreck, other thinking, unable to settle. I tossed and turned all night, not quite knowing when I was going to actually get some sleep. I tried counting sheep, listening to classical music, anything to keep my brain fromContinue reading “You know it’s going to be a mental health day when…..”
No topic is off topic.
Sometimes all you need is to get back into the things you love, oh and for your period to come. I know this is too much information but after yesterday I thought I had rapidly dropped into decline again. I take such an interest in my ” bad ” spells that I over react. IContinue reading “No topic is off topic.”
Saturday Blues
Today, I cannot be arsed. I have little motivation and I have spent the afternoon lounging, with the TV on, but not quite taking it in. I did succeed in doing a run this morning, which did in fact make me feel great so I guess that was a positive for me. But after myContinue reading “Saturday Blues”
Waiting for therapy
Sitting, waiting, trying to calm myself before entering the therapy room so I can help myself and talk. BUT the waiting room is full of people, wandering, with the same anxious feels inside them. The same people, looking like they’re going to be sick. The same people tapping their feet, pacing up and down theContinue reading “Waiting for therapy”
Compliments and how to take them.
Today I got given several compliments from my friends about this actually, about blogging and it got me thinking about how I take them. Receiving a compliment is not just the hardest thing. To me, what happens when I get given a compliment, the comment seems to go in my ears but bypasses my brain.Continue reading “Compliments and how to take them.”
The rat race is just not me
Today, no words. Just pictures or shortened words about how everything in London is all about the rat race. From the cyclists trying to beat you on the road to the people cramming on the tubes. I don’t think it’s me. I don’t think I’m made terribly well for this place. I ride slow, IContinue reading “The rat race is just not me”
Recovery win
Today, yes today Tuesday 7th January 2020, (it still feels weird to write that – I’ve been writing 2017 for the past 3 years), I did something different. I’ve been thinking a lot recently about my recent breakdown, although I now feel as though it has happened to someone else. It’s like looking through theContinue reading “Recovery win”
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