This time 24 hours ago, I was talking to a therapist R, at Complex Needs. I was extremely suicidal and had been for a week and a bit. The deciding factor this week had been my housemate stating that he had been tested positive for Corona and my now settled routine had become awash withContinue reading “What a difference 24 hours and regaining some control makes.”
Category Archives: mental health
Having EUPD and being on lockdown
Is truly not the one. My emotions are just so flighty at the moment and everything feels difficult. I range from being deliriously happy to suicidal in the hour. My concentration span has been shred into a hundred thousand pieces and my resilience seems to have removed itself from my body. I feel scared andContinue reading “Having EUPD and being on lockdown”
Find one thing each day that makes you happy…
Well today I found 3. 1. The first was “Zoom”ing my family and my my best friend (Sorry A, I love you). (I can’t actually post a picture of my family on here cos the screen shot I took has all their surnames on there and I know that some of you are crazy motherfuckers).Continue reading “Find one thing each day that makes you happy…”
Video calling…….
I have recently discovered video calling through the help of a friend who persevered and persevered with me to do so. I know this might seem like a simple task in these crazy times but for me it is so anxiety provoking – the idea that I will talk over someone or the video willContinue reading “Video calling…….”
Untitled.
And on days where you feel like there really is no hope you have to remember that This too shall pass. And there is hope. And there is power in knowing that this feeling. These emotions are only temporary. You are okay. And remember that like the flowers now blooming, out of darkness there isContinue reading “Untitled.”
Mental Health Services
During this tricky time, of Corona virus it is imperative for those who live with mental health illnesses to either have a good support network of friends and family or have a good team behind them in the form of Mental Health Services. This whole epidemic is creating more lonliness through forced isolation and inabilityContinue reading “Mental Health Services”
Fruitful day
Today, I am cream crackered but not in a vulnerable, negative emotional kind of way but in a fulfilled happy positive kind of way. I came to see some good friends yesterday after an important therapy session. It had been a hard week, well hard weekend last weekend followed by a bad start of theContinue reading “Fruitful day”
When you have BPD and your therapist tells you she is pregnant………..
Attachment central thrown into melt down, trying to be happy. I said congratulations but didn’t really feel it. Oh and no she won’t be able to finish of the treatment programme with me. I already feel abandoned from people in my life and now bosh, this. L asked me today how I feel about itContinue reading “When you have BPD and your therapist tells you she is pregnant………..”
Letter to myself.
Yesterday I began writing a half draft, deadly serious letter to myself to try and get me out of this lost state that I seem to keep finding myself in. I wrote and I wrote and I wrote. I was harsh on myself and upon reading it back, really quite brutal and honest. I haveContinue reading “Letter to myself.”
Fight
Sorry, I lost myself for a while there. Got caught up in all of the negativity and negative emotion. Got lost in trying to find answers to problems that I can’t solve. Got lost searching for the meaning when actually there might be no reason at all for how it why I am like this.Continue reading “Fight”
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