This time 24 hours ago, I was talking to a therapist R, at Complex Needs. I was extremely suicidal and had been for a week and a bit. The deciding factor this week had been my housemate stating that he had been tested positive for Corona and my now settled routine had become awash withContinue reading “What a difference 24 hours and regaining some control makes.”
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I’ve just started to get into a routine with all this Covid-19 stuff and then Pow! Today. My head has blown up in my own stupid face. The alcoholic person with whom I live with came home today saying he has it. He has Corona Virus. Boom, my head went pop, pop, pop. 2 weeksContinue reading
Find one thing each day that makes you happy…
Well today I found 3. 1. The first was “Zoom”ing my family and my my best friend (Sorry A, I love you). (I can’t actually post a picture of my family on here cos the screen shot I took has all their surnames on there and I know that some of you are crazy motherfuckers).Continue reading “Find one thing each day that makes you happy…”
Video calling…….
I have recently discovered video calling through the help of a friend who persevered and persevered with me to do so. I know this might seem like a simple task in these crazy times but for me it is so anxiety provoking – the idea that I will talk over someone or the video willContinue reading “Video calling…….”
Mental Health Services
During this tricky time, of Corona virus it is imperative for those who live with mental health illnesses to either have a good support network of friends and family or have a good team behind them in the form of Mental Health Services. This whole epidemic is creating more lonliness through forced isolation and inabilityContinue reading “Mental Health Services”
Feeling fed up
Oh fucking hell, roday I am just feeling so fed up of the world, of the government, of Corona Virus, of working in a school when the government suggests to avoid socialising and being with more than a set amount of people but being forced to be in a place where there is definitely moreContinue reading “Feeling fed up”
Sorry to mention the dreaded C word but…….
I feel like I’m living in some kind of weird apocolypse. I feel like the world is going crazy and a lot of people appear to be having some kind of breakdown. We, as Brits, no longer talk about the weather but everyone’s topic of conversation is situated around the Corona Virus. If it’s notContinue reading “Sorry to mention the dreaded C word but…….”
Fruitful day
Today, I am cream crackered but not in a vulnerable, negative emotional kind of way but in a fulfilled happy positive kind of way. I came to see some good friends yesterday after an important therapy session. It had been a hard week, well hard weekend last weekend followed by a bad start of theContinue reading “Fruitful day”
Letter to myself.
Yesterday I began writing a half draft, deadly serious letter to myself to try and get me out of this lost state that I seem to keep finding myself in. I wrote and I wrote and I wrote. I was harsh on myself and upon reading it back, really quite brutal and honest. I haveContinue reading “Letter to myself.”
Fight
Sorry, I lost myself for a while there. Got caught up in all of the negativity and negative emotion. Got lost in trying to find answers to problems that I can’t solve. Got lost searching for the meaning when actually there might be no reason at all for how it why I am like this.Continue reading “Fight”
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