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I think my attachment style has changed.

So before when I looked back at my childhood, I always thought that I was part of the insecure attachment style and under the 3 umbrella terms – I thought that ambivalent suited me best. This is where the child. The child fails to develop any feelings of security from the attachment figure. Accordingly, they exhibit difficultyContinue reading “I think my attachment style has changed.”

Summer is my jam…

The long, clear cut nights with its 9pm sunsets and days spent with sun blazing over my golden brown skin. The evening 15 mile cycle rides just because you can and days spent paddling in rivers in nature. With birds tweeting and talking to each other and now, at the moment and for the preceedingContinue reading “Summer is my jam…”

Feeling hurt…

When somone close to you posts a picture and a caption for mental health awareness week bout their own struggles which firstly you didn’t know anything about and then then that part of the caption says “make sure you check in with those near to you”. Like that’s one big fuck you if ever IContinue reading “Feeling hurt…”

Living in an unsuitable environment…..

How can I just know? How can my body just know when A is drunk again? It’s like my mind completely switches in on itself. My emotions go from happy and care free to sad and frustrated and stuck. Am I so attuned to behaviour like that, exhibited from my own father in childhood thatContinue reading “Living in an unsuitable environment…..”

The trio of many emotions that I felt this morning. I started off feeling confident and happy and then within 10 minutes for no reason with no explanation I went to the last. Flat, done in, sad, crying 5 tears and emotional. I’d been feeling it since yesterday evening. Bank holidays are hard at theContinue reading

Video calls got me thinking…..

I haven’t belly laughed like that in ages – there is something beautiful about being altogether with your siblings and your Mumma and laughing- feeling comfortable and bouncing off of each other. I mean we soent most of the video call laughing at Mumma trying to sort the audio and the picture on the videoContinue reading “Video calls got me thinking…..”

Recovery win

Today, yes today Tuesday 7th January 2020, (it still feels weird to write that – I’ve been writing 2017 for the past 3 years), I did something different. I’ve been thinking a lot recently about my recent breakdown, although I now feel as though it has happened to someone else. It’s like looking through theContinue reading “Recovery win”

Me, me, me, me, me, me.

I realised yesterday that I haven’t even introduced myself, so I guess here goes, My name is Katie and i am a 28 year old woman living in South West London. I live with a mental health illness called Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder or otherwise known as Borderline Personality Disorder. I was diagnosed in lateContinue reading “Me, me, me, me, me, me.”