Lockdown has changed me. These days, I spend my time listening to people and talking about them and their lives. I don’t feel like I fit in anywhere and I don’t want to talk about myself. I feel trapped in this kind of charade where I have to keep up appearances – keep on doingContinue reading “Double edged sword.”
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Woken up this morning with….
A spring in my step, and a craving for normailty. I’m craving sitting in a cafe with a Dirty Chai Latte and a good book. I’m craving watching the 6 Nations in the pub on a date or with friends. I’m craving sitting in my best friends house and just having her husbands pork cracklingContinue reading “Woken up this morning with….”
Video calls got me thinking…..
I haven’t belly laughed like that in ages – there is something beautiful about being altogether with your siblings and your Mumma and laughing- feeling comfortable and bouncing off of each other. I mean we soent most of the video call laughing at Mumma trying to sort the audio and the picture on the videoContinue reading “Video calls got me thinking…..”
Fucks sake
I just wrote an incredibly good blog post about what’s going on for me – how I think I’m actually okay and happy but I keep waking up early early – 5 am and today 4. My head hurts and all my words were used on the last post that magically disappeared. I’m having theseContinue reading “Fucks sake”
What a difference 24 hours and regaining some control makes.
This time 24 hours ago, I was talking to a therapist R, at Complex Needs. I was extremely suicidal and had been for a week and a bit. The deciding factor this week had been my housemate stating that he had been tested positive for Corona and my now settled routine had become awash withContinue reading “What a difference 24 hours and regaining some control makes.”
What do you do when you start feeling sad at the end of a therapy session?
I just don’t know. Today at the end of my group session, I felt as if I could cry, tears right in the corner of my eyes ready to come out but not quite there. It was difficult because there wasn’t enough time to talk about it. My heart was pumping fast and I feltContinue reading “What do you do when you start feeling sad at the end of a therapy session?”
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And I blog and I write and I run and I photograph and I do anything to ease the feelings that live within me. I would do almost anything to stop myself from feeling as much as I do. Whether it’s anger, sadness, happiness or frustration that builds up within me, I don’t often knowContinue reading “….”
I know it – you’re all itching to hear about how therapy went.
Wow! Is that really what you are meant to feel like after a GOOD therapy session. I felt lighter, like a heavy load had been lifted off of me. I felt this sense of ease rush over me. And although I felt flat when I finished the therapy session rather than the usual elated /Continue reading “I know it – you’re all itching to hear about how therapy went.”
Compliments and how to take them.
Today I got given several compliments from my friends about this actually, about blogging and it got me thinking about how I take them. Receiving a compliment is not just the hardest thing. To me, what happens when I get given a compliment, the comment seems to go in my ears but bypasses my brain.Continue reading “Compliments and how to take them.”
Recovery win
Today, yes today Tuesday 7th January 2020, (it still feels weird to write that – I’ve been writing 2017 for the past 3 years), I did something different. I’ve been thinking a lot recently about my recent breakdown, although I now feel as though it has happened to someone else. It’s like looking through theContinue reading “Recovery win”
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